The following was written more than six weeks ago......
I love the way she smiles at me. So sweet, so trusting, so adoring. It melts my heart to mush always, that pretty little smile. And when she stretches those cute little arms to me, like I'm her only delight, I feel..........a million joys within! Her gurgles, her tiny spit bubbles, her bold adventurous soul, all amaze me almost beyond words. But above all,I am captivated by her spirit; so free, so gentle, so unburdened. This young lady, this baby in my arms, has shown me, in her smile, so much more than i have seen in this whole day. And as I watch her leave, safe in the cradle of her mother's loving arms, content and satisfied, I realize: that was once me!
When? when, I ask myself. When did I stop being my Father's baby. When did I step out on my own. When did I leave the haven of His arms to walk alone this road unknown. When did i stop smiling into His eyes, mesmerized by the beauty within. When did I stop sitting at His feet to listen, laugh and learn from the tales that have always been the change in my life. When did I stop taking to Him the pieces of my broken 'things', when did I start fixing them on my own. When did i decide I was the law on things? When did my confidence become myself, instead of my Father's might and grace? When did I loose total dependence on Him, that leaning on Him that has been the lifting of me always? when, when, when.
The answer, I, honestly, do not know. But this I do know. I am done playing God. I am coming home. I have missed my Papa's jokes, His comforting, encouraging words that make me go farther than even my dreams. I have missed looking through His eyes, watching wonders that never cease to amaze me, sharing my heart with Him, sharing His dreams and thinking with Him.
Father, please, show me again how to be this child of yours that I am. I only want to follow where you lead. Please, show me Your way.
Nice one.First time here.
ReplyDeleteBack into the father's arms where we find comfort, security, warmth and love, He is always willing to have us back. BTW i'm talking about my Heavenly Father.
hellooooo!!!
ReplyDeleteglad to have you on more than dreams. yep, it is my heavenly father i'm talking about too. thanks for the compliment. hope you're good.
omg! I love that epilogue. You write so beautifully well Nike. Pls publish more!
ReplyDeleteI always thank God for His mercies over my life. I know right... we, many times have tried to slip off His loving arms, thinking we are old enough to do it our way... He watches us still... every step of the way and pulls us out of danger in His loving mercy. Oh, my father. How loving.
Thanks for the reminder Adenike. You are a blessing :)
- LDP