22 January, 2011


This is what the Sovereign LORD, the Holy One of Israel, says: "Only in returning to me and resting in me will you be saved. In quietness and confidence is your strength. But you would have none of it.
Isaiah 30:15 NLT

That is the newest word to describe how I am. Entirely radical. In a good way, of course. J
I just finished reading a yet another amazing book by lori wick, and my mind is stil reeling from all the transformations going on inside me. God is definitely doing something, and though I don’t have wing of exactly what it is, I like it. I like it very much.

I have never had such clarity typing a blog post before, but this time, I feel new in ways I never thought possible. My heart is so much lighter, I am so much more at peace within myself than normal, and that my friend is saying a lot! I am changing so fast that even I am finding it hard to keep up with all the changes happening within me. How ironic! For as long as I can remember, I’ve always striven hard to be a better person. I’ve always done my best to right my wrongs and fix myself. My eyes and ears are so used to picking up what’s wrong about me, and what needs working on. And, much to my utter amazement, I have changed more in the past couple of months without my awareness, than in the whole time, years by the way, I’ve spent trying to be better. I didn’t realize all I had to do was surrender.
Scary word if you ask me. Not be in control, to not be my own boss, to not be able to wake up in the morning and decide what my day will be like. No way!!! But, that’s just it. Plain surrender. And added to that is a good deal of trust and patience. Ok, maybe I should slow things dowm a byte and explain what what I mean eh?

We rely on what Christ Jesus has done for us. We put no confidence in human effort
Philippians 3:3 NLT

Here’s the deal, here’s all I’m trying to say: YOU CAN’T DO IT. Yup, you heard me right, or rather, read me right, lol. You can’t. That goes against all the pep talk we’ve been thought to give ourselves doesn’t it. But hear me out. It’s a paradox. It simply means, we can and we can’t. ‘We’ can’t. But Christ in us does. All the changes that we desire, all that we desire, our worries, hopes, fears and dreams, we are absolutely powerless to influence. At least on our own. If there’s something about yourself that isn’t pretty, YOU can’t change it. It’s Christ in you that can. Galatians 2:20. Contrary to what most of us believe, we don’t have to strive to be better. What we need only do is pursue. Simple. The rest will come in time. Process. Matthew 6:33. This is eternal life, to know Him, the only true God. Trust me, knowing Him changes everything!!
So, in essence, what am I saying? Pace out, slow things down. If need be, bring things to a complete halt now and get on your knees. Trust me, there’s no better place to be. You find that leaning on the savior’s strength, you’ll have all the strength to be and do all you need to do. And He will light the way for you every step of the way, holding on to you, being your source and provider, being there for you. Stop playing super hero, just quiet out. Come to terms with the fact, YOU can’t do it. But, with Him, YOU will.

Discovering this has had a lot to do with all the changes in me. So much peace and serenity than I’ve ever felt before. Now, I am not more at war with and within myself. I trust Him. If anyone can, it’s Him. Now, I’m beginning to see myself as He sees me, a real belle. Someone worth treasuring and loving. I am no longer afraid of my flaws, I do not even loathe my mistakes anymore.
I realize I am my Father’s child no matter my faults and shortcomings. I love everything I am and all that I represent. I am not in any way a finished product, but I am a wonderful person. J Now, I am comfortable with my Father’s timing. I understand that our lives yours and mine, are stories being written by a master Writer. Each page in this story is a tale of adventure describing the process through which a lesson was learnt.
Now, I am no longer ashamed that I am learning. I am excited and glad. I am grateful for every season, even as it brings its own share of challenges and beautiful moments. God is certainly not through with you and me, and what He’s done so far is worth celebrating everyday for the rest of our time.

This is definitely for me something new and evry different, but all the same wonderful. Definitely much more than my dreams. J

28 December, 2010

Farewell to 2010: Letting Go

"Preserve me, O God, for in You I put my trust."
Psalm 16:1 NKJV

If you ask me, this entry is way overdue. Yet, I believe it is all well that its coming now, because it’s become even much clearer to me, in ways I never imagined.

For two years now, a certain verse from the bible has been my constant companion, day and night, every waking moment. That verse is proverbs 3:5&6. It’s been never far away from my heart, showing itself in situations just at the nick of time. However, these words did not work great change in me initially. At least not at once. Gently and gradually, they’ve changed me. Especially this year. Here is what I learnt.

God is not against us, He is for us. He doesn’t hate or condemn us. He believes so much in the future He has for us and we must also if we are to get there. However, we must be willingly to do one thing, TRUST HIM WITH ALL. With everything. Our strength and our weaknesses; our fears and our convictions; our happiness and our pains; what we know and what we don’t. Everything. We must learn to fall at His feet and acknowledge that He alone can and will see us through, in every way. Every step of our way. This is way beyond leaving it in His hands, it is letting go. Submitting like a sheep. Handing off. Relying on hime like a baby relies on its parents for everything.

To be continued…………

26 December, 2010

A Year without Me


How have you been? And the year? I’m sure 2011 is already dancing around for you, or isn’t it? Trust me; i know what that feels like. Well, hold on a Moment. Let’s not hurry into the New Year eh? How about we take these few days left in this year to do something different. Something, maybe not spectacular, but unforgettable. For me, that would be sharing some things from my heart with you. Looking back on this year, and appreciating every single moment, with you. J

If I could describe this year in one word, I’d say: NEW. Entirely different from what I’ve been used to. Which is the inspiration for the title of this post: ‘’a year without me’’. That’s what it’s been for me, one crazy (in a good way) year! I have had not one single hand in this year’s entire outcome. Not one. It’s been like being on a carousel ride. And, mehn, it’s been good. A welcome change. For once in my life, my year has gone in no way like i expected. It’s been way better than. And funny, I have a feeling this is just the beginning of such years for me.

This is the beginning of a series I’d like to call farewell to 2010. I hope i complete it, but either ways, I’d have given out something from my heart, and that is quite well if nothing else. J


19 October, 2010

A Few Somethings....


It's been a fantastic time for me. Been plenty laughs, tears, songs and dancing. And of course, learning. Being seeing a lot of new things about life and living. It's been an interesting time. I found out these golden truths that i learnt make all the difference. It's done amazing things for me. Hope it makes a difference for you too.

Here they are, enjoy!

     1. God understands, more than you or anybody thinks He does.

"Isa 40:28  Hast thou not known? hast thou not heard, that the everlasting God, the LORD, the Creator of the ends of the earth, fainteth not, neither is weary? there is no searching of his understanding."

2. the future is not some far away time. It begins today. Start today, don't waste any more time, take time. Don't let it pass you by.

3. To win a race a runner must set his mind on the race, on the prize, the finish line, not on the other runners, or the spectators or the audience or the irregularity of the tracks or the workers around. He must run with his mind set on one thing; that one thing that matters. we must set our minds and hearts on what really matters. not what we think matters, or what others think matter, on what matters.

4. Today is what gives birth to tomorrow. We must learn to live TODAY. We must never loose heart because of what we are today, remembering that every big thing started from one little thing.

"within a single acorn is an entire  forest"

5. You cannot do it on your own. It's a gross waste of time trying to.
"Psalm 127:1 Except the LORD build the house, they labour in vain that build it...."
"Zech 4: 6 Not by might, nor by power, but by my spirit....."
"Isa 40:30 & 31  Even the youths shall faint and be weary, and the young men shall utterly fall: But they that wait upon the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint."

            And there you have it. I pray it does some good in your life too. Let me leave you with this dear friend, a fantastic smile. Have a lovely day!